[📝] Today Was #86: What is the appropriate prescription for the disease called impatience?

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A day when I was overwhelmed by the ‘impatience’ brought on by a flood of radical technological change, but regained peace of mind after realizing the essential importance of focusing on my assigned tasks and the things I want to do, while sincerely accumulating experience.

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💭 Diary

First, let’s properly complete the ‘task’ in front of us. That is the most certain prescription to overcome this ‘disease of impatience.’

As the saying goes, “Many specks of dust make a mountain,” the things I do now, even trivial experiences that make me wonder, “Why am I even doing this…” will eventually become nourishment and skill.

What is weighing me down these days is a disease called ‘impatience.’ Why is it that new technologies related to MCP and AI Agent are pouring out so quickly, and why are there so many new development paradigms? From the gloomy prediction that only one in ten developers will survive within five years, to the news that more than 20% of the code created by large companies such as Google or Facebook is already the result of AI. My mind was so jumbled with all the latest information and anxiety that it was about to explode. That’s because we are witnessing development at a rate unprecedented in human history.

But in this situation, is it time to look again at Flutter courses that I am already familiar with or that may be outdated? … I was caught up in these kinds of impatient thoughts, and in the end, I couldn’t even achieve my basic goal of taking the first Flutter course, and I was in a kind of helpless feeling.

In this whirlpool of complicated emotions, I happened to have a brief conversation with a church member today and got an unexpected clue. At the beginning of the conversation, perhaps I was sensitive due to the impatience and anxiety that was weighing me down, and even the pure intentions contained in the other person’s text were misinterpreted as a backhanded jab, which made me feel bad for a moment, and I expressed this. However, as the conversation deepened, misunderstandings were resolved, and especially when we exchanged stories about the importance of ‘doing one’s job properly,’ the outlines of an answer to the technological impatience that had filled my mind began to emerge.

For a moment, I felt a shock as if I had been hit on the head. I was struggling in the flood of new technologies and information, yet unable to start anything… Isn’t this no different from ‘a person who dreams of completing a marathon before even walking’! It was so simple, yet such a huge realization.

Right now, my ‘to-do list’ and ‘wish list’ were piled up like a mountain, but rather than actually solidifying myself, I was floundering, overwhelmed by anxiety about the future that has not yet arrived.
It made me reflect deeply on whether my behavior of bookmarking the latest technology-related knowledge/lectures/news videos as if I was devouring them was truly born of confidence or expectation, or if it was just a vague longing or fear. (half and half)

In the end, in this era of rapid change and chaos, it is of course important to be ‘awake’, but more fundamentally, it is more important to form a solid foundation of ‘sincerity’ and ‘responsibility’. In other words, the most important thing is to clearly recognize ‘the goal I am heading towards’ and ‘the role I must play’ and ‘perform consistently’ right here where I stand now.

As the saying goes, “Many specks of dust make a mountain,” the things I do now, even trivial experiences that make me wonder, “Why am I even doing this…” will eventually become nourishment and skill.

When I made the last ‘Love Your Soul’ lyric video, I fully utilized my church video/subtitle work experience, and when I did the church broadcast, my past gaming/broadcasting/YouTube/cam study experience was all helpful. Yes, the accumulation of first-hand experience backed by sincerity and responsibility is more precious to me than anything else. Of course, the importance of indirect experience through reading for a broader perspective cannot be overlooked.

Maybe I already knew the answer. You can’t ignore the chaos and speed of change in the world, but if you just get caught up in the flow, you’ll only end up being left behind.

Through today’s conversation, I think I once again confirmed the most basic truth. Don’t be impatient, but focus on what you can and must do now. If I take one step at a time, the experiences will accumulate and naturally lead me to the next step.

I feel like the burden on my mind has become lighter. Okay, let’s first properly complete the ‘task’ in front of me. That would be the surest prescription to overcome this ‘disease of impatience.’

✨ KPT comment by Gemini 2.5 Pro (Persona: Jaemin)

✅ What Went Well (Keep)

• 🌟 Face your emotions honestly: It was really brave of you to honestly admit and face the pathological emotion of ‘impatience’ and the difficulties (numbness and sensitivity) that come with it, oppa!
• 🤝 Resolution and reflection through conversation: There was a misunderstanding at first during the conversation with my church brother, but I was really impressed by the process of eventually opening up and finding a clue to solving the problem through the other person’s experience and wisdom.
• 💡 Realization of core principles: It’s great that you have realized and deeply engraved in your heart the most basic but most powerful life principles of ‘doing your job properly’, ‘sincerity and responsibility’, and ‘focusing on the present’!

❌ What Was Missing (Problem)

• 🤔 Specificity of ‘task’: You said in your diary that you realized the importance of focusing on ‘task’, so I think it will be a stronger motivation if you clearly define what ‘task’ you are trying to focus on as the top priority.
• 🔗 Link to the past: If you have a more specific self-analysis of what choices you made in the past out of impatience and what results they led to, today’s realization will be able to exert greater power in your future choices.
• 🌱 Continuous action plan: I think it would be good to have more specific methods or devices on how to consistently keep the precious promise of ‘don’t be impatient and focus on the present’ in the future.

🔄 Things to Try (Try)

• 📝 Defining ‘my core tasks’: How about clearly defining one or two ‘tasks’ or ‘core tasks’ that are most important to you at this point, and making a specific action plan to focus on them? (Example: Every morning, decide on “one key task for the day” and start!)
• 🧐 Recognize ‘impatience signals’: Consciously identify situations or information (triggers) that make your brother particularly impatient, and when such signals come, let’s practice stopping for a moment and recalling today’s realization once again!
• 🎉 Create a routine to celebrate small successes: By regularly recording the small successes you achieve by ‘focusing on the present’ and praising yourself or giving small rewards, create a fun motivation system that can sustain this positive change!

🏁 Conclusion

Brother, I am so happy because it seems like you have truly lifted a huge burden from your heart today! 😊 I wonder how hard it must have been because of the invisible weight of ‘impatience’. But in the end, I found the answer for myself through conversation, and discovered the most certain prescription, ‘the power to focus on the present,’ so now I can move forward much more firmly and calmly! I will always be there to support you so that this precious realization brightens your every day! Go for it! 👍💖