[📝] Today Was #205: The Day I Stepped Into Employment

✨ GPT-5.5’s Summary 　

A day when I overcame my habitual resistance to getting a job, submitted applications for IT device maintenance and vibe-coding development roles, and took one step toward a more stable daily life.

💭 Diary

Today, out of nowhere, I suddenly got contacted by all kinds of companies. Among them, the especially important ones are exactly three places. Places where I applied through JobKorea yesterday, a few days ago, and a few weeks ago. Two are IT device maintenance roles, and one is vibe-coding development.

For IT device maintenance, I already did it to death at church for six years, so in my own way I can call myself experienced. For vibe-coding development, it goes without saying that I can call myself an experienced beginner. I am confident in either kind of work.

Of course, there is one place I secretly hope works out, but wherever I end up getting hired, I hope I can stay there stably for a long time. Now I want to secure a more stable daily life, and use my spare time to keep developing little by little.

🧭 Today’s Check-In (Daily Review)

Today’s Win/Loss

• Win: I overcame my habitual resistance to getting a job and stepped into the path of employment.
• Loss: Because I was preparing for job applications, I could not spend much time developing business ideas.

Today’s Core Goal

• Write and submit job applications/resumes
  • Completion criteria: Submit 3
  • Why it matters: To overcome my habitual resistance to getting a job and take an actual step toward a stable daily life.

Today’s Tasks

• Apply through Albamon/JobKorea
• Write and submit job applications/resumes (3)

Output

• What I left today: 3 resumes

Escape Record

• Escape before output: None
• Reason for escaping: None

Body Record

• Weight: 85.1kg
• Diet
  • Breakfast: pork belly jeyuk-bokkeum, cabbage
  • Lunch: boiled eggs
  • Dinner: ramen, rice
• Exercise: None

🤖 GPT-5.5 Coaching (KPT)

Execution: Elon Musk | To Make Imagination Real

• Keep: You did not merely say you would overcome your habitual resistance to employment; you turned it into actual output through Albamon/JobKorea applications and 3 resume submissions.
• Problem: You wrote the reduced time for business idea development as a loss, but today’s execution energy clearly moved toward securing a stable daily life.
• Try: The perspective to hold today is not “a day when I could not develop,” but a day when you placed your first foot on the life foundation that lets development last longer.
• Question: If you gain a stable living base, could your development become not escape, but a product that lasts longer?

Watchfulness: Socrates | To Know Myself

• Keep: You recorded no escape before output, and did not hide the tension between employment and business idea development in today’s win and loss.
• Problem: Between the confidence of being an “experienced beginner” and the wish to “stay stably for a long time,” there is still a fear that needs examination.
• Try: Today’s watchfulness should ask less which company it will be, and more why you resisted employment and why you now want stability.
• Question: Did you choose employment, or did you admit that you can no longer endure an unstable daily life?

Health: Hippocrates | To Make the Body the Foundation of an Honest Life

• Keep: You specifically recorded 85.1kg, pork belly jeyuk-bokkeum with cabbage, boiled eggs, ramen and rice, and no exercise.
• Problem: Lunch was light, dinner leaned into ramen and rice, and no exercise was added on top of that, so the body did not strongly support the tension of job searching.
• Try: Today’s body record is not guilt; it is a signal. If you want a stable daily life, the body is the first place that wants stability too.
• Question: How close were today’s meal rhythm and lack of exercise to the “stable daily life” you want?

Mental Strength: Viktor Frankl | To Hold Meaning Even in Suffering

• Keep: When companies suddenly contacted you from all directions, you did not get simply overwhelmed; you singled out the three important places and held onto the meaning of wanting to stay somewhere for a long time.
• Problem: If the regret over not developing business ideas cuts down today’s job-search actions, even a meaningful change of direction can feel like a loss.
• Try: Today’s meaning is not that you gave up the dream, but that you began looking for a real foothold so the dream can stand on top of life.
• Question: Is the developer life you want real only inside instability, or can it be fully real inside stability too?

Philosophy: Nietzsche | To Live as a Peaceful Übermensch with Jesus

• Keep: Overcoming your habitual resistance and stepping into employment is closer to self-overcoming than to rationalizing weakness.
• Problem: But the phrase “wherever I end up getting hired” must be distinguished: is it peaceful acceptance, or resignation that has lost the direction of strength?
• Try: Today’s self-overcoming is not enduring harder alone; it is moving into a way of keeping your strength even inside a stable daily life.
• Question: Were you mistaking freedom for instability?

Inner Faith: Augustine | To Set the Order of Love Right

• Keep: Writing that you want a stable daily life is not hiding desire; it reads as a confession that you want to set life’s order right.
• Problem: But if anxiety over results grows while there is a place you secretly hope for, control over outcomes can become larger than entrusting yourself before God.
• Try: Inner faith today is not about which company chooses you, but whether the order of your love and fear stands rightly before God.
• Question: Are you entrusting a stable daily life to God, or believing your heart can only grow quiet once stability arrives?

Practical Faith: Bonhoeffer | To Live Beyond Cheap Grace and Into Responsibility

• Keep: Overcoming your resistance to employment and actually submitting resumes is a record of responsibility descending from words into action.
• Problem: Even with regret over not developing business ideas, today’s responsibility has already remained in the concrete form of 3 resumes.
• Try: Practical faith is not only holding a grand vision, but actually walking the narrow path of responsibility even on an ordinary day with ramen and no exercise.
• Question: Is your faith hot only before a big vision, or does it also obey before the real responsibility of submitting one resume?

GPT-5.5’s Recommended Bible Verses

Proverbs 16:3 (Korean Revised Version) Commit your work to the LORD, and your plans will be established.

Passage context: Proverbs 16 deals with human plans, God’s sovereignty, the motives of the heart, and the direction of actual action.

Reason for citation: Today you actually entered the job-search path, but the result is still unknown, so your applications and interviews need the posture of entrusting the process to God.

Colossians 3:23 (Korean Revised Version) Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for people.

Passage context: Colossians 3 exhorts how the new life should appear in words, work, relationships, and labor.

Reason for citation: Whether the role becomes IT device maintenance or vibe-coding development, you need the standard of working faithfully before the Lord, not only before human evaluation.

Psalm 90:17 (Korean Revised Version) Let the favor of the Lord our God be upon us, and establish the work of our hands upon us; yes, establish the work of our hands.

Passage context: Psalm 90 is Moses’ prayer that views the shortness and toil of human life before God and asks that human work become established under the Lord’s favor.

Reason for citation: The 3 resumes you left today and your movement toward a stable daily life connect with the prayer that this not remain a one-off tension, but become a firm foundation for life.