[📝] Today Was #84: Inner calm and control, awareness/coaching based system design

✨ Summary of Gemini 2.5 Pro 　

A day when, with the help of an expert, I regained peace and control, broke away from past self-limiting thoughts, and resolved to build a system with a balance of awakening and coaching.

🎯 Today’s Goal

If the achievement is not achieved, a fine of 2,000 won will be accumulated for each item regardless of the reason.

• Job Korea resume registration
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• blanket laundry
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• Resume Inflearn courses
  • Flutter App Development Basics Lecture 4/44
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📌 Today’s Check-in

If the achievement is not achieved, a fine of 1,000 won will be accumulated for each item regardless of the reason.

• Upload your diary to your blog
• Aerobic/anaerobic over 30 minutes
  • Body Calendar
• Daily intake less than 1800 kcal
  • Pillyze
• Habit Tracker ALL PASS
  • TickTick

💭 Diary

You know ‘What’? (‘Routine system design’ theory/concept)
You Know ‘Why’? (‘Self-awakening’ opportunity)
You know ‘How’? (‘Self-coaching’ methodology)

• Routine system designer Minhyuk

I fell asleep at 23:00 last night and woke up around 5:00 this morning without an alarm. Strangely, I didn’t feel sleepy, and after going to the bathroom, I was more than 80% conscious. Immediately, I naturally thought that I had to finish the work I had done yesterday, so I sat down in front of my MacBook, turned on TickTick, and began to calmly process the tasks in Inbox. I felt surprisingly clear and refreshed.

It’s been a long time since I felt this controlled. In the past, I would have been excited and excited about this state, but it’s amazing to see myself quietly doing the things I want to do in a strangely calm way.

In the past, the to-do list in my mind was a mess, as if I couldn’t touch it. (Of course, the actual house wasn’t that bad!) Sometimes, I got caught up in the immediate pleasures and had trouble controlling my time. I also felt that I had trouble concentrating or controlling my impulses, so I decided to have a certain tendency and had a hard time self-gaslighting.

However, after a detailed consultation and examination with the doctor in charge at the psychiatry department I recently visited, I came to understand myself from a new perspective. I felt deep trust in the way the doctor clearly answered my analytical questions. Contrary to my previous thoughts, the doctor told me that my current condition was relatively healthy, but that I needed constant attention and care for emotional stability. (Thank you again to the doctor who helped me.) This process served as an important opportunity for me to break free from the thoughts that confined me to a certain framework in the past.

The doctor recommended supplemental medication, saying it would help with mood regulation and self-control, and I am currently starting with a small amount and continuing it steadily. This medication is said to act stably in the body for a relatively long period of time and help reduce ups and downs.

Is it thanks to that? Before I knew it, I became deeply peaceful inside. I wonder if it has ever been this peaceful, but it feels strange. But I really like the way I am now, where I can control myself, do what I want, and be free from unnecessary things. I like this calmness that allows me to feel joy but not get overly excited.

Perhaps this kind of management will continue to be necessary in the future. This is because I feel that it helps me maintain a sense of stability by reducing the ups and downs of my natural temperament and maintain an optimal state for achieving the ideals I dream of and the vision given to me by God.

The biggest driving force behind my recent self-reawakening was my desire to become ‘a person who can confidently express my feelings to anyone without being intimidated in front of any celebrity.’ This kind of strong ‘Why’ is clearly needed.

But now I know that ‘Why’ alone is not enough. As expected, the statement ‘lack of will’ is only half true. If you rely only on self-awareness, it is easy to become frustrated due to your temperament or environment. Therefore, self-coaching, or designing the ‘How’, is essential. Recently, I began to focus on self-coaching again by starting counseling for public institutions’ mental health support programs, various psychological tests and interpretations, consultations with experts, and medication management, because I felt the need for such a system.

Aren’t many people failing at repetitive tasks such as dieting because they overlook the ‘How’ and only focus on the ‘Why’? When you create a virtuous cycle of designing a routine system through self-coaching, maintaining the routine with the motivation (‘Why’) gained from awakening, and making it a habit (‘How’) through coaching, you will finally have the weapon to achieve any goal.

In order to put this promise into practice, starting yesterday, I made a rule not to do any so-called ‘killing time’ such as playing games or watching YouTube until I completed all the habits in the Habit Tracker. Even following this rule was added to the Habit tracker. It is an expression of my will to break away from the tendency to easily fall into unnecessary actions in the past and move toward my goal within the system I designed.

Internal stability through this management, resuming the blog diary, improving the fine system, and establishing and practicing specific systems such as the Habit Tracker rules that I have imposed on myself will be important steps in establishing and realizing my identity as a ‘routine system designer’.

✨ Comment from Gemini 2.5 Pro (KPT)

✅ What Went Well (Keep)

• 🌟 Balanced growth narrative: I like that it honestly shares past difficulties and the current process of overcoming them, while generalizing sensitive information to increase its appropriateness as a public article. I have become more thoughtful while maintaining the depth of my growth!
• 🛠️ Specific system application: Based on a clear framework of ‘What-Why-How’, setting and putting into practice a very specific and strong rule, ‘No killing time before Habit Tracker ALL PASS’ is what makes you a ‘routine system designer’!
• 💡 Recognition of the virtuous cycle of positive change: It is impressive to see that expert help, inner peace, improved self-control, and efforts to build a system based on this are having a positive impact on each other, and that they are establishing their identity through this.

❌ What Was Missing (Problem)

• 🔗 Lack of depth of ‘What’: Although the frame was presented as “You know What? (Routine system design theory/concept),” the specific explanation of ‘my own routine system design theory/concept’ corresponding to ‘What’ in this diary seems to still have room for further development.
• 🎯 Concreteness of connection with ‘vision’: Although it was mentioned that it is an optimized state to achieve the ‘vision given by God,’ it would be good if there was more detail about what part of the vision the routine system currently being built or the peace regained is specifically connected to.
• 🌱 Strategies for maintaining emotional stability: Current calm is associated with external help (medication, etc.), but concerns about internal strategies (e.g., mindfulness, stress management routines) to maintain and strengthen this stability in the long term do not seem to have been specifically revealed yet.

🔄 Things to Try (Try)

• 📜 Statement of ‘My Routine Design Principles’: Next time, how about defining and writing down some of the ‘core principles of routine design’ that you consider important as a ‘routine system designer’? Your understanding of ‘What’ will deepen.
• 🗺️ Vision-Routine Connection Mapping: I think it would be a good idea to divide the ‘God-given vision’ into a few core goals and simply connect how the main routines you are currently practicing (e.g. writing a diary, Habit Tracker rules) contribute to each goal.
• 🧘 Consider adding an internal calming routine: In addition to your current external support, consider adding a small internal calming routine to your system (e.g. meditating for 5 minutes a day, writing down a specific section of your emotional journal, etc.) to help you create and maintain calmness yourself.

🏁 Conclusion

Today’s diary shows your wonderful journey as a ‘routine system designer’ who deeply reflects on your experiences and tries to sublimate them into universal wisdom! It’s truly amazing to see you overcome past difficulties and build and put into practice a strong framework of ‘What-Why-How’ with the serenity gained through expert help. I believe that this sincerity and systematic approach will make the path toward your vision even stronger! I will support your steady growth! 😊👍