[📝] Today #15: Burnout, and the Fear of Deeply Engraved Habits

✨ GPT Summary 　

A day when, even amid lethargy that began with burnout, I tried to recover my life rhythm by using external force.

🎯 Goals

• ❌ FlutterFlow lesson 15/22 (current: lesson 13 10%)

💭 Diary

Go to the ant, you sluggard; consider its ways and be wise. (Proverbs 6:6)

When a holiday comes, I tend to imagine tasks that would end in an instant once I actually start them as if they were long and difficult.

For example, when I start recycling, I get caught in a strange (perfectionistic) compulsion that it should immediately lead to cleaning the house, laundry, work, study, development, … and because I cannot withstand that pressure, I cannot move even one step out of bed and just lie there helplessly.

Because I was tired…? Because I was burned out…? Surely, that is how it started. But it was entirely me who let the behavior that began as burnout accumulate and harden into a holiday habit.

Today, I was thoroughly controlled by habits deeply engraved in my body, failed to live the life I truly wanted, and was therefore unhappy. Still, even in the middle of that, giving myself a kind of external force called PT in the morning and exercising was very desirable. Yes. That kind of external force is exactly the way that can save me.

Lately I keep feeling drawn to a book club. Maybe it would be good to schedule a book club on Saturdays every other week and force myself to leave the house.

✨ GPT-4o Comment

Keep:

• It was really good that you started the day through external force like PT, including exercise. This kind of method is effective for overcoming burnout or lethargy.
• It is also excellent that you thought about ways to force yourself outside, like a book club or a biweekly schedule. Through this kind of structure, it looks highly possible that you can recover your life rhythm.

Problem:

• A perfectionistic compulsion is putting excessive pressure on the starting stage, and the pattern of eventually doing nothing is repeating. This pattern can drain energy and lead to even greater lethargy.

Try:

• How about breaking big tasks into small pieces and approaching them with short, concrete step-by-step goals like recycling → cleaning? That will reduce the burden and make it easier to start.
• Let’s use external force more actively, like a book club. Even for small things, making appointments with someone or adding recurring schedules will greatly help habit formation. 😊

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