[📝] Today #14: It’s Okay. I Won’t Die.

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A day when I rode a Ddareungi bike home in freezing weather, proved my toughness to myself, and fell asleep with a proud heart.

🎯 Goals

• ✅️ FlutterFlow lesson 12/22
• ✅️ Run the praise contest broadcast

💭 Diary

It’s okay. I won’t die.

If I had to pick one of the biggest things I realized after serving in the military, it is that humans are stronger than we think.

By the time I finished today’s AIFFEL schedule and church schedule, it was already almost midnight. I wanted to go home, but the last train was gone, taxi fare felt like such a waste… then the only remaining option was Ddareungi, wasn’t it?

-5 degrees? A slightly cool breeze? Those things did not matter much. I do not get cold easily anyway. And back when I was in the military, I used to stand ambush by the sea once every three days!

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That was a delusion.

I almost froze to X-death for real.

I hurriedly pulled a scarf, ear muffs, and gloves out of my bag and put them on, but it was not enough. After riding for about 10 minutes, I reached the stream heading toward the Han River… and my face already had no feeling. I should have brought a mask…

But would I die?

It’s okaay… I won’t diie…

Stubbornness kicked in. It felt like a second cold-weather military training. I resolved that I would absolutely overcome this.

The headwind was so strong that my face had no feeling. Since I could get frostbite, I held the bike with one hand and covered my mouth with the other, blowing warm breath up toward my face.

As the limits of a single coat and slacks became clearer and cold slowly began circling through my whole body, I pedaled faster to supply heat to my whole body. I would burn calories and lose fat, and I would not even sweat, so total profit.

…

In that way, I reached the Han River in 45 minutes, when it normally would have taken 25 minutes. Now I had passed half of the whole course.

I must have thought dozens of times about finding a nearby Ddareungi station, returning the bike, and taking a taxi. But I held on by thinking that if I just rode one more stretch equal to what I had already ridden, that would be it.

Worries about catching a cold were meaningless. Because right now, I was doing cold-weather training. This had already become mental training, nothing more than an obstacle to overcome.

As I kept going, there was a completely unexpected 7-Eleven convenience store. How could I not go in there? I visited immediately. (Actually I did expect it, but I was not sure whether it would really be open 24 hours.)

The part-time worker, who had been enjoying sweet comfort while watching Netflix, also seemed surprised. Some crazy guy was trembling and walking into a convenience store by the Han River at this time of night in this weather…

Hot packs? A mask? That kind of thing does not suit cold-weather training. All I needed was one warm drink to warm my body.

After feeling life return to my whole body, I immediately rode the remaining course and finally completed it.

Then I arrived home, and my body felt like it was melting.

😌 … Heaven?

How happy I was…

Even though the heater was on and the temperature showed 25 degrees, even though the house was clearly full of warmth, my body was full of cold. My cheeks and thighs stayed cold for about 20 minutes. I should have been hot enough to sweat in bed under the blanket, but that cold energy did not go away at all.

… Maybe, if I had made one wrong move, I might have gotten frostbite. (But with slightly baseless confidence, I felt sure I would not catch a cold or anything.)

Lying in bed and looking back, I did feel a little “what the hell did I just do by myself?” and laughed at the absurdity. Even so, I was incredibly proud.

Because I had proven to myself that I am a person who can easily endure an obstacle of this level. And because I realized once again that people do not die easily.

I was so proud of myself. And I wanted to reward this version of me.

Hmm… so I made stir-fried udon and ate it.

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Hmm… the reward felt insufficient. I neatly ordered delivery food too and fell asleep.

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Ah! The bell is already ringing. 😄

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It was a hard and exhausting day, but a happy one. haha

(I fell asleep like that, so actually this diary was written on the 28th.)

Now that I have written it all… why did I write a diary like this? Well. I do not know either. Maybe because I felt it was a meaningful experience worth preserving. And in the first place, the process itself of looking back on yesterday’s memory must have been very enjoyable. Then that is enough!

✨ GPT-4o Comment

Keep:

• It was really cool how you rode Ddareungi to the end even in the freezing cold and proved your toughness! 💪 This experience was not just transportation; it seems like a precious time that gave you strong pride in yourself and confidence for future challenges. 🌟
• It was also very impressive that you did not leave a hard day as just a passing memory, but looked back on it joyfully and recorded it. ✍️ This attitude will become a big asset for your growth going forward!

Problem:

• Your preparation against the cold seems to have been a little insufficient. ❄️ In particular, it is unfortunate that you could not protect your face and body enough. Health always comes first, so next time you should pay more attention to this.

Try:

• Even for extreme challenges like this, let’s find ways to enjoy them safely! For example, preparing cold-weather gear in advance or planning places to warm up along the route could be good. 🗺️
• Keep leaving records like this in the future! Vivid and honest records like today’s will carry great meaning for you. 😊

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