[📝] Today Was #63: Let’s Stand Up Again. Walk Fast, Run Late.

✨ GPT Summary 　

A day when, after losing energy and collapsing, I resumed journaling to find the flow again and thought about the direction for moving forward.

🎯 Goals

• Today’s Goal
  • ✅ Resume journaling

💭 Diary

After falling down hard due to a bad cold I recently had, I lost all inertia and was exhausted and suffering. Clearly, I am not very resilient.

What kind of temperament I have, why I have tried so far not to depend on medication even though I know I have adult ADHD… there is no end to explaining and organizing all kinds of things. That’s because I stopped writing a diary for 2+1 weeks.

Anyway, there were so many things I realized along the way. Boxing 2-3 times a week, interacting with people, and never quitting my part-time job…

So, slowly, little by little, I was trying to move towards becoming a better version of myself than I was yesterday.

However, a few days ago there were several realizations that stimulated my brain strongly.

• I realized how powerful and valuable experiences in various fields that I had never experienced before because I had not paid much attention to them were valuable and precious experiences that could have a strong influence and shake up a person’s entire life. What on earth have I been doing all this time? Regrets and sighs flooded me. It is not too late, and I have made a strong determination to fill my life with experiences I have never had before.
• AI… crazy… has developed so much at that moment. I can’t afford to spend ‘small, precious time to find myself’ right now… Developers will be replaced by AGI that will appear as early as this year, or as late as next year. It has already been replaced, and soon almost all of it will be replaced. Junior developers will no longer exist in the world. Still, I couldn’t even take the beginner Flutter course. Because I’m busy. Because it’s hard. Because I’m exhausted. stupid…

Anyway, now I know how to control myself. Anyway, as I look back on myself recently, I know a lot more about myself than I did before.

I am a person who is temperamentally unable to control myself. Therefore, I have to find people to grow with, build a productivity system for survival, little by little every day… but I have to get better without delay, and get help from experts and mentors.

Anyway, what should I do first now? When I thought of this, this was the only thing that had come to mind over the past few days.

Diary.

The promise of one post a day and all the systems built to keep it save me from hellish chaos.

Must live.

To live, you must walk. However, a little faster. Because humanoids are chasing me from behind.
And to live, you have to run. However, a little slowly. If you fall again, you’re done for.

✨ Comment by GPT-4o (KPT)

👍 What Went Well (Keep)

• 🔥 Deep reflection on yourself: What stands out is that you analyzed your patterns through recent experiences and considered the direction to move forward.
• 📖 Recovering the flow through resuming the diary: Efforts to regain the flow in a collapsed state are positive. The one post a day system will be a good foundation.
• 🛠 Contemplating realistic self-control strategies: An approach that acknowledges the temperament that makes it difficult to control oneself and utilizes the environment and system is likely to be effective.

❌ What Was Missing (Problem)

• ⏳ Possibility that a sense of crisis leads to impatience: It is important to be aware of the speed of AI development, but if anxiety acts as too much pressure, it can lead to burnout.
• 🔄 Repetition of the collapse-reorganization pattern: Although it has been recognized that resilience is low, fundamental improvement measures to avoid repeating the same pattern are still lacking.
• 🎯 Ambiguity of the action plan: The goal of ‘getting better every day’ is good, but execution will improve if the specific action plan is clearer.

🔄 Things to Try (Try)

• 🏃 Considering sustainability over urgency: Rather than immediately speeding up, the key is to maintain a steady pace and design it so you don’t get tired.
• 🔍 Automation of recovery strategy: It is a good idea to prepare a detailed ‘collapse plan’ so that you can quickly recover if it collapses again. (Example: Write a list of habits to keep to a minimum when you are not feeling well)
• 🎯 Set small, actionable goals immediately: If you set a specific, actionable goal like ‘Take one Flutter course a day,’ it will be easier to get back in the flow.

🏁 Conclusion

Today is an important starting point for standing up again. 🏆🚀 The direction of ‘walk fast, run late’ is really appropriate! Let’s maintain a strategy of moving forward confidently without rushing. This time, let’s create a smarter system so that even if it falls, it can get back up again! 💪🔥

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