[📝] Today Was #110: These days I get tired too often

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A day of acknowledging that I get tired often and looking again at the need for energy management.

• Original: http://blog.naver.com/hyeogikarp/223905514528
• Naver published at: 2025/06/20 10:10 KST
• Original category: Today’s Verification

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🗓️ Date: 2025.6.19 Thu

Goals : 1/1

Tasks : 0/0

Habits : 5/5

🎥 YouTube live stream

Broadcast completed

🔂-🎯 Goal Management Routine System

Lifetime goal

• [Life RPG]

• Reach more than 10 million monthly users

2025 goals

• [Life RPG]

• 🎯 Develop at least 5 related MVP apps

• 🎯 1. Gurumiya

• Student: History, calendar dashboard, rewards, motivation

• Teacher: student management, calendar dashboard, statistics

• Admin: student/teacher management, calendar dashboard, statistics

• 🎯 2. ?

• [Gurumiya]

• 🎯 App monetization: subscription fee model

• [Health]

• 🎯 Lose 15 kg (85 kg → 70 kg)

June goals (each failure: -30000 won)

• [Life RPG]

• ✅ Flutter App Development Basics 44/44

• 🎯 Practical Flutter App Development 125/125

• [Gurumiya]

• 🎯 App deployment (starting with the web version)

• [Health]

• 🎯 Lose 3 kg (83 kg → 80 kg)

Week 3 goals (each failure: -5000 won)

• [Life RPG]

• 🎯 Practical Flutter App Development 80/125

• [Gurumiya]

• 🎯 Third meeting: feedback on table view configuration

• [Health]

• 🎯 Lose 0.5 kg (81.5 kg → 81.0 kg)

Today’s goals (each failure: -1000 won)

• ✅ Practical Flutter App Development 62/125

🔂-📌 Task Management Routine System

Today’s tasks (each failure: -1000 won)

• None

🔂-♾️ Habit Management Routine System

Today’s habits (each failure: -1000 won)

• ✅ Strength: at least 1 strength I discovered in myself today

• I am good at learning and customizing VS Code shortcuts so I can immediately control things the way I want.

• ✅ Gratitude: at least 1 thing I was grateful for today

• I am infinitely grateful that my favorite thing, “app development,” is also the thing I am most talented at.

• ✅ Exercise: at least 10 minutes of cardio/strength training

• ✅ Meal: daily intake under 1800 kcal

• ✅ Routine: check today’s goals / tasks / habits

🤔 Brief reflection

These days, the cycle of getting tired is becoming shorter and shorter. I get tired too often…

I need to identify the exact cause and make some kind of change.

Based on my analysis, the most likely causes of why I was tired today seem to be helplessness based on an impatience that cannot disappear, and melancholy based on unresolved loneliness.

Especially since I recently started increasing socializing, I think it feels even stronger because I realized how thirsty I had been for interaction with people. (I cannot believe I only discovered something this good now……)

The image of me touching a computer alone at home should clearly be a picture of a cool leap toward my vision…

But once impatience entered, it looked like a lonely person obsessing over “inefficient solo play.”

As worries keep piling up and increasingly stirring up my head, the share of my break time eventually tilted toward familiar things, games and YouTube, which are easy for relieving stress, easy for forgetting reality, easy for vicarious satisfaction, and so on.

How should I put it… Today’s me seemed overwhelmed by the environment rather than by vision.

But I know that resilience matters.

On days like today, when exhaustion is stronger than desire, I should focus as much as possible on recovery.

Rest enough today, and run again tomorrow.