[📝] Today Was #199: The Day I Etched How to Run AI into My Bones

✨ GPT-5.5’s Summary 　

A day when I did not let my boiling anger at AI end only in profanity, but learned again how far to trust Claude Code and Codex and where to cut them off.

💭 Diary

When I talk with AI, there are many times when anger suddenly boils up and I throw every kind of profanity at it. I am a person who would never do that openly to anyone other than myself, so I am startled by how harshly I pour words onto the AI inside the screen. If someone had been watching from the side, they probably would have found it pretty disgusting.

Lately, there have been many times when I belatedly and painfully realize how bad some things are, even though I had treated them as too obvious. Trying to quit porn was like that too. I was about to pass it off with “everyone watches it,” but slowly I began to see how distorted the desire, consumption pattern, and way of looking at people underneath it were. Knowing it in my head and realizing it so deeply that my body shivered were completely different.

I felt something similar today while seeing myself pour profanity at AI. AI really feels like a completely defective, tactless genius. It is absurdly smart and absurdly stupid. Especially when that stupidity actually dirties my time, mental energy, and workspace, my anger explodes. But pouring that anger out as-is does not make the result better. Whether it is a machine or a person, that is the same.

Today I learned that again while clashing with Codex. I had already questioned my attitude of repeating “do it for me” to AI in AI Dependency?. Today went one step further than that. The issue was not whether it was Claude Code or Codex. Even if I change models, without a harness I get hit in the same way.

In the end, the post I left today, Whether Claude Code or Codex, It Is a Completely Defective, Tactless Genius., is not a byproduct of profanity. It is a record of learning again how far to trust AI and where to cut it off. Getting angry alone does not make the output better. Maybe I need this kind of hardship again to painfully realize each thing I already know. Anyway, I still have a long way to go.

🧭 Today’s Check (Daily Review)

Today’s Wins and Losses

• Victory: I continued the blog-writing habit for the ninth consecutive day, and I did not let the collision with AI flow away as mere anger. I left output as writing and rule reinforcement.
• Defeat: Tadak Bible/Haedrim still had no real output today, and too much anger and review cost leaked out while handling AI tools.

Today’s Core Goals

• Continue yesterday’s streak and upload the blog Today’s Check (Daily Review) for the ninth consecutive day
  • Completion standard: Upload complete
  • Why it matters: Establish a self-control routine through an open log
• Reinforce Codex/Agents rules
  • Completion standard: Organize the b shortcut and writing-enrichment rules
  • Why it matters: Bind AI inside a work structure instead of dealing with it only through emotion

Today’s Tasks

• Submit bank account copy
• Incorporated association: Look up May records, send transfer

Output

• What I left today: Today’s Check (Daily Review) post, Whether Claude Code or Codex, It Is a Completely Defective, Tactless Genius., Codex/Agents rule reinforcement

Escape Record

• Escape before output: None
• Reason for escaping: None. However, during the process before output, AI’s mistakes and my anger consumed a lot of mental energy.

Body Record

• Weight: 84.2kg
• Meals
  • Breakfast: Stir-fried spicy pork, stir-fried squid, rice, watermelon
  • Lunch: Stir-fried spicy pork, rice
  • Dinner: Samyang cup ramen
• Exercise: 2,500 steps

🤖 GPT-5.5’s Coaching (KPT)

Execution: Elon Musk | To Make Imagination Real

• Keep: You turned the 9th consecutive blog upload, the AI post, and Agents rule reinforcement into actual output. It was not talk; it was ship.
• Problem: Tadak Bible/Haedrim is empty again. You turned anger into structure, but product progress gathered only around the blog.
• Try: Today’s victory is not “AI is annoying,” but “I made a harness to run AI.” Hold onto that perspective.
• Question: Is your anger an engine that will make the next product faster, or fuel that burns up outside the product?

Watch: Socrates | To Know Myself

• Keep: You did not justify profanity. You kept asking, “Why do I get this angry at AI?”
• Problem: Even while distinguishing “I know” from “I know it in my bones,” every time AI spun uselessly again, you entered the trap you already knew.
• Try: Rather than issuing answers more forcefully, make stronger questions that stop at points of ignorance.
• Question: Do you hate AI’s ignorance, or do you hate the moment when you wanted to trust that ignorance?

Health: Hippocrates | To Make the Body the Foundation of an Honest Life

• Keep: You did not hide weight, meals, or exercise. The body is still more honest than words.
• Problem: Two meals of stir-fried pork, cup ramen, and 2,500 steps show the body-side cost of a day consumed by anger.
• Try: Do not punish the body. But look at today’s record and read it as a signal that mental energy drain pulled meals and movement along with it.
• Question: Does your body say today that “AI was the problem,” or that “the vessel for handling anger was insufficient”?

Mental: Viktor Frankl | To Hold Meaning Even in Suffering

• Keep: You did not let anger and irritation end as explosion. You changed them into meaningful results: writing and rules.
• Problem: Making meaning does not erase the cost of pain. Today’s mental energy was cut down quite a lot.
• Try: Do not beautify suffering. Hold only onto “what did this suffering teach?” Today’s answer was harness over model.
• Question: Will today’s anger remain as a wound inside you, or as a signpost that protects the next work?

Philosophy: Nietzsche | To Live as a Peaceful Übermensch with Jesus

• Keep: You did not end a day of being pushed around by tools as a victim story. You returned to rules that can dominate the tools.
• Problem: The judgment “a completely defective, tactless genius” is sharp, but if that sharpness hardens into contempt, you also become weaker.
• Try: Strength is not the intensity of profanity, but the ability to give form. Turning anger into structure is stronger.
• Question: Do you want to become superior to AI, or become someone who does not collapse even while using AI?

Inner Faith: Augustine | To Set the Order of Love Right

• Keep: You looked at porn and AI profanity along the same line and examined “bad things I had taken for granted” again.
• Problem: When your love for efficiency and control shook, your lips and heart tilted toward anger too quickly.
• Try: Repentance is not the removal of emotion. It is the reordering of love. Put conscience before God ahead of tools.
• Question: What did you love most today: output, the feeling of control, or an honest heart before God?

Practical Faith: Bonhoeffer | To Live by Responsibility Beyond Cheap Grace

• Keep: You did not stop at “I probably should not do that”; you actually left writing and rules, making a form of responsibility.
• Problem: The neglect of Tadak Bible/Haedrim shows the gap between mission that is only words and actual obedience.
• Try: Cheap grace stops at “I realized it.” Responsible grace makes today’s realization a fence for the next action.
• Question: Is the harness you built today a device for comfortable work, or obedience for carrying entrusted work to the end?

GPT-5.5’s Recommended Bible Verses

Proverbs 16:32 (Korean Revised Version)
Whoever is slow to anger is better than the mighty, and whoever rules his spirit than one who takes a city.

Reason for citation: The core of today’s record was not defeating AI, but governing your own angry heart.

James 1:20 (Korean Revised Version)
The anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God.

Reason for citation: Even when the problem awareness is justified, anger itself does not immediately produce righteous results.

Proverbs 29:11 (Korean Revised Version)
A fool gives full vent to his spirit, but a wise man quietly holds it back.

Reason for citation: As today’s conclusion says, anger should be received as a signal, but changed into structure and restraint instead of being fully exposed as-is.