[🧩] Even If My Head Cracks Open, I Have to Do What Must Be Done

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A meaningful day when, despite extreme fatigue and sleep deprivation, I overcame my old tendency to run away, followed the advice around me and my inner conscience, resisted every temptation, and finished today’s work.

• Original: http://blog.naver.com/hyeogikarp/223875726930
• Naver published at: 2025/05/23 21:32 KST
• Original category: Daily Life

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🗓️ Date: 2025.5.23 Fri

✨ Summary by Gemini 2.5 Pro

A meaningful day when, despite extreme fatigue and sleep deprivation, I overcame my old tendency to run away, followed the advice around me and my inner conscience, resisted every temptation, and finished today’s work.

🎯 Today’s Goals (each failure: -1000 won)

• ✅ Go to part-time work

• ✅ Collect and organize patient materials for online medical missions

• ✅ Blog post: [♾️-Planning] Todo/Goal Management Routine System Planning: Concept Definition and Design

[♾️-Planning] Todo/Goal Management Routine System Planning: Concept Definition and Design

These days, when I think about managing goals or tasks, I eventually arrive at the thought that the answer is “systems.” …

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• ✅ Blog post: [🧑‍💻] The Current Level of AI Code Autocomplete (feat. VSCode Copilot)

[🧑‍💻] The Current Level of AI Code Autocomplete (feat. VSCode Copilot)

Seeing once beats asking a hundred times. First, let’s look at a very shallow example of the code suggestions VSCode Copilot AI gives these days. …

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📌 Today’s Proofs (each failure: -1000 won)

• ✅ Strength: At least one strength I discovered in myself today

• Even while drowsy all day, I held on with stubborn will, resisted every temptation to the end, and finished today’s tasks well.

• ✅ Gratitude: At least one thing I was grateful for today

• I am grateful for the precious “life partners” who bring positive influence into my life directly and indirectly every day.

• ✅ Exercise: At least 10 minutes of aerobic/anaerobic exercise

• ✅ Meal: Daily intake under 1800 kcal

• ✅ Restraint: Killing time only after Habit ALL PASS

💭 Diary

I understand, Hyuk. But what worries me is that you have the capacity to study, you have the heart, and you have the will, yet at the most important moment, you have a “tendency to run away.”

In life, when there is something you must do, you must do it, and instead of running away, even if your head cracks open, you have to do what must be done and move on.

You have to judge and set your priorities well in life, then handle the flood of work according to those priorities.

COVID is not over yet, so take care of your health.

ㅡ Professor Park ㅇㅇ

(2022)

I resolved that I would no longer give up what I “truly” want and fall for every impulsive, addictive temptation. And today. I practiced it. The willpower I showed today is among the Top 10 experiences of my life. (But on the other hand, if this barely makes my Top 10, I guess I really have lived a pretty comfortable life lol)

This is a powerful motivation to absolutely avoid the horrifying situation of no longer living my life on my own terms.

And I am practicing it through all the proofs on this blog I am writing now.

Every task I had to do today finally ends with this post.

The “B=MAP” formula from the Fogg Behavior Model seems like a truly intuitive and good self-reflection tool.

[📝] Today Was #3: Overcoming Procrastination, Fogg Behavior Model (B=MAP), Daily Habit ALL PASS

🗓️ Date: 2025.5.18 Sun ✨ Summary by Gemini 2.5 Pro A trivial YouTube list cleanup became a study of the Fogg Behavior Model…

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Good.

Finally… I can collapse.

It has been a while since I spent an entire day from morning wake-up to night in zombie mode, constantly dozing off. Lately I think I have been too obsessively immersed in Todo/Goal routine ALL PASS, so my sleep this week was absolutely lacking. Today’s staying-awake-all-day(?) was a forced march I could not avoid if I wanted to turn my flipped day-night pattern back to day-night.

Because my body and mind were so exhausted, the compensation urge hit hard. I impulsively wanted to order delivery food, take a taxi, and skip the blog diary for just one day.

But I endured it because now I know doing that just returns me to the past. I endured it because I know the thing I lack most, and need most, is exactly this kind of “diligence” and “patience.” I endured it because I know this is how I can grow it.

I endured it because Professor Park’s advice written above kept circling in my head.

And I endured it because the sharp advice close acquaintances have given me in various ways kept circling in my head.

Decisively, when I asked the greatest conscience in my heart, He said please, this time, just endure it a little lol. Then I have to endure it, what else…

Did “I” do all of this entirely on my own? Is this a human victory?

No way…

So I give all the glory of today to the Lord.

Anyway! Finally…! I can collapse.

Let’s full-charge!

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